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13 April 2003 @ 03:55 pm
new job begins  
whoa. i'm actually bored right now. this doesn't happen very often. i think i should be glad that i start work tomorrow; although no doubt by the end of the week i'll be regretting ever saying i was bored. i know there's stuff i should/ could be doing... but i lack the motivation to even think about what it is.

so, i'm scared to death (well, close to) of starting my new job tomorrow. what if they made a huge mistake in hiring me? what if i'm not the right person for the job after all? what if i'm nothing but a huge disappointment? what if i hate it? what if they hate me? so many what ifs... i really want this to go well. i really want to enjoy working there. i don't want to become another one of the masses who hates going to work, who spends life counting down until the weekend. i want to be happy in my new position, and do well at it. i want to be a success here, not a failure. i'm scared of failure; i wish i had russ's sense of confidence in myself.

i guess there's no point wondering all the "what ifs", because tomorrow i start, tomorrow i get my first taste of what it's like to work full-time. russ is adament that i'm beginning a career here, but i'm not sure if thinking about it like that is exciting, or just plain nerve-wracking. no, i'll think positively. this is exciting.

oh, but i really, really hope i'll like this job. i hope i'll do well at it... and i hope they'll like me too. tomorrow it begins.
 
 
 
hearts streaked across the skieslikeyesterday on April 12th, 2003 11:32 pm (UTC)
you will be wondrous!
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 12th, 2003 11:41 pm (UTC)
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eeep, i hope so love! :\
love graffiti dancing in the streetsurban_ballerina on April 12th, 2003 11:44 pm (UTC)
i was wondering did i do something to offend you why you unadded me as your friend. I'm awlfully sorry if I did and will understand.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 13th, 2003 02:28 am (UTC)
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sweetie - no, you didn't do anything to offend me! i was just cleaning out my friends list to cut back, and i wasn't sure if you wanted to stay on, as you hadn't replied to my post asking who wanted to stay - but i can add you back if you like. i didn't mean to offend you by taking you off - i had to take off a few people i liked, since i know i won't be able to keep up with a huge list now :(
love graffiti dancing in the streetsurban_ballerina on April 14th, 2003 02:58 pm (UTC)
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oh okay. im sorry i didnt reply ive been buzy being sick but now im ont he way to recovery (i had an operation! ee!) and a lot of time off uni. its my first few montsh start too. grr. nice start to being independent.! i really loved having you on my friends list. and im sorry if i havent had the time for you lately. but im better now! i understand if you have too many people to keep up with. but i thought i was one of them :( oh boo. but i understand and all/ if you want to add me that would be super. but if you dont ill understand. but i miss your entries. i always read them! hehe. well have fun and happy ljing! :)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 19th, 2003 05:17 am (UTC)
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i readded you :) will you readd me too, so i can readyour journal?
xox
Jennifer: happy endings by mouthfullofdustsilverangel19 on April 13th, 2003 12:28 am (UTC)
You'll knock 'em dead sweetheart! New jobs are always stressful and a little scary. Just have confidence that you'll do your job to the best of your abilities. Thats all they can ask of you. *hugs*
carmelitatoomanystars on April 13th, 2003 03:16 am (UTC)
Two things: firstly, you're right: "what ifs" have no point at all. "What is", is what is important. Secondly, sometimes, when other people believe in you, it's enough. He believes in you, and I believe in you, and so does everyone who's reading this - and that should carry you through. :)

Worst case scenario - you hate it: so, you'll leave and find another job!

Good luck, I know you'll do well - and if, by some small chance, they don't like you, then they must be oblivious. :)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 13th, 2003 03:23 am (UTC)
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darling, you don't know how much your words just helped me right then. thankyou so much - i will carry them with me tomorrow as i start, and i know they will help me immensley.
xxxx <3
faerie_star on April 13th, 2003 04:02 am (UTC)
I'm sure they'll like you and you'll do great, dear. ♥
Good luck!
delicatewings on April 13th, 2003 11:13 am (UTC)
oh and i do hope that all your nerves will quiet down when you work and that you can be at ease when you start this new job. let us know how it went okay? :) don't worry, i'm sure once you familiarize yourself with your job, all will be fine. i'll have faith in you . i'll make sure to keep good thoughts of you in my mind to try and telepathically send good feelings your way jade. :D

xxx
unraveled on April 13th, 2003 12:24 pm (UTC)
what if they made a huge mistake in hiring me? what if i'm not the right person for the job after all? what if i'm nothing but a huge disappointment? what if i hate it? what if they hate me? so many what ifs... i really want this to go well. i really want to enjoy working there. i don't want to become another one of the masses who hates going to work, who spends life counting down until the weekend. i want to be happy in my new position, and do well at it. i want to be a success here, not a failure. i'm scared of failure;

Sweetie, you sound like me a week ago! The same thoughts and more ran into my mind when I was about to start my new job. But you will do fine! I know you will. They wouldn't have hired you, if they didn't want you there. Just remember that you are not going to fail. You're going to go in there and blow them all away. Good luck, good luck, and try not to worry so much (though I know how hard it is not to sometimes). You are going to do perfectly!
The most fantastic of all muppets in the land: rockstarfantasticmuppet on April 13th, 2003 12:33 pm (UTC)
best of luck. you'll be fine, honey!!!
   ++   Sparkle Of Life   ++sparkleoflife on April 13th, 2003 06:02 pm (UTC)
Just be yourself and you'll be fine =) *huggles*
*wannabeflapper on April 14th, 2003 01:02 pm (UTC)
I have faith in you! You'll do great!