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23 November 2003 @ 07:03 pm
visual collages & words make me melt melt melt  
i started today at 5:30am and tomorrow will be a sleep-in, monday morning 6:15am. hooray for being back at work for a new week and i know there's not many who say that. my weekends are filled with collages and scrapbooks & travel plans & conversations, and i lovelovelove those days where nothing else seems to matter except expressing yrself through colour & words. i feel so happy & free these days, and for the first time in a very long time, i feel like nothing is holding me back. there are people who love me for being who i am, and i know now that i don't have to pretend otherwise for people to care. when people can accept you for being the real you, it's genuine, and nothing is better than knowing that yr thought of. and i have all of you to thank for that, and i wish i could return the love somehow, especially to those who are hurting.

i make collages out of magazine ads & scribble flb quotes in margins. my room is a tower of travel guides & maps, and i feel like i could fly (if only i wasn't so tired). i watched moulin rouge this afternoon, and i wish i had been a part of the bohemian revolution; somehow i think i could have fit in. and you know, perhaps i'm an odd little pixie who prefers to write stories about girls in rollerskates and create a fantasy world out of glitter & clouds, perhaps i'm just plain weird because i don't like to cruise the city for cheap pickups & alcohol, perhaps i don't belong because i'd prefer to draw stars all over my hands than watch the sports; but i hold my head up high and i say, i don't care. this is my life and i like it. i find contentment in the simplest of ways, and nothing makes me happier than being free to create & write & colour. i'm painting my world the way i want it to be, and while i can't really live in the clouds or dance on stars, i can create my world so that it feels like it anyway. so i feel the same sense of freedom & magic & inspiration as though i really was one with the sky.

i'm trying to feel beautiful and i'm content at last.

 
 
 
she with her honey hairnelmiocuore on November 23rd, 2003 12:43 am (UTC)
I love you.
And come the dawn I'll be long gone__electrique on November 23rd, 2003 04:29 am (UTC)
you are an artist...and a wonderful person! Miss you Jade! ♥
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 24th, 2003 12:46 am (UTC)
miss you too honey <3
coda: wishing on a starlette_withbellson_ on November 23rd, 2003 06:18 am (UTC)
this makes me soooo happy.

this is your life and you like it!!

live by it, never forget it.

pretty starpainted dreamer.
xoxo
paints daisies and plays with glittershepaintsthesky on November 23rd, 2003 08:31 am (UTC)
i'm trying to feel beautiful


You don't have to try very hard....because you already are so so so incredibly beautiful.

I'm glad you are finding things that make you genuinely happy....don't lose focus of that. Live for yourself, Jade. No one else.

Don't lose sight of the important things in life....and don't ever tell yourself you are anything but beautiful. Because anything else will be lies. If you need me, you know where to find me. :)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 24th, 2003 12:45 am (UTC)
thankyou. &i hope yr okay too.
i need to write you a letter sometime. i think yr just lovely <3
Crystalcrystalina on November 23rd, 2003 01:05 pm (UTC)
i feel so happy & free these days, and for the first time in a very long time, i feel like nothing is holding me back. there are people who love me for being who i am, and i know now that i don't have to pretend otherwise for people to care. when people can accept you for being the real you, it's genuine, and nothing is better than knowing that yr thought of.

i'm so glad to read that. so happy for you dear! :) *HAPPY HUGS*
Annabelledefying_elphaba on November 23rd, 2003 08:24 pm (UTC)
you are beautiful. I'm so glad I met you. =)

Art is a wonderful thing, everybody should be an artist.

make art, not war.

And wow, your name is Jade?.. That's so interesting.. I used to go by that name in high school. You are the third person named Jade that I've met. So cool.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 24th, 2003 12:39 am (UTC)
aww, thankyou :)
psst: btw, i haven't forgotten about yr letter, just behind a little. it will arrive though :)
thorn witchalex_faerie on November 24th, 2003 08:49 am (UTC)
:D How much does it make me smile to read this entry? TONS!!! You have everything in life if you can create. And you can!!! You are such a beautiful person Faerie-J, and I'll love you forever. Always.