April 20th, 2001

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

looking forward...

i'd forgotten how good it felt to look forward to something, to have something in your life that makes you smile and be excited for the future. i was becoming so used to this feeling of numbness, to some extent - the feeling of everything being okay, but somewhat bland. i'd forgotten what it was like to be so excited about something and to count down the days until that event happened,

i'm excited again, and i'm still counting down the days until our first rehearsal for the play, until i can see everyone again. Sunday afternoons are becoming my salvation, the bright day of my week. I mean, it's not as though I have a bad week at all. I enjoy all that I do, although work is pretty boring, and if I have to put up with one more rude insane customer, they are going to cop some attitude from yours truly. However, my week is fine... it's just a little... routine like. There's not really anything much to look forward - I go through each day, simply doing the motions, doing what I normally do. And it's really not a bad thing at all, but...

There's something about looking forward to a special event that just makes you so damn glad you're alive, glad for everything you do. Because everything you do brings you one step closer to that special moment.

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

my day so far

My day has been so-so. Nothing bad, but nothing that really stands out. Work was fairly quiet up until the last hour of my shift, which was unusual compared to the mayhem it's been this week. School holidays - I'm so glad I'm not in school anymore. I went shopping a little after my shift there, and brought a new top to wear clubbing. It was only $10, so I didn't feel bad for buying it at all. Now, I might write a letter to a penpal, and then tonight I have a rehearsal for "Waltzes in Vienna". I'm so tired. It's going to be too hard to get up early for work tomorrow morning, especially as rehearsals keep going later and later. Oh well. But right now, I'm dying for a cup of hot tea, so I'm leaving this now.

Have a lovely weekend everyone!