May 21st, 2001

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

"I'm in love with Vienna...."

This has been one busy weekend.

The Opera is officially finished. And I'm actually quite sad about it, although at the same time, a little relieved. I knew I'd be relieved when it was done, simply because it was beginning to take up so much of my time. But in saying that... maybe that's why I'm sad about it ending too. After all, I've been working in this production since January. Shows like that always grow on you.. and now it's finished. In our last show on Sunday, as we sang each song, I kept thinking, "this is the last time I'm going to be singing this song". The adrenaline was amazing. In one of the songs - my favourite, "Love is a Waltz" - the audience started clapping before we'd even finished.

For so long, I couldn't wait for this show to be over. And now that it's over... I'm sad for it. I'm glad to have my Wednesday nights and Friday nights back, but I'll miss the people, I'll miss the songs, I'll miss the general feel of being IN a show. And it's moments like that, which reminds me of exactly why I love the theatre... after all the tears and worries, and all the hard work... seeing how it affects the audience just makes it all worth it.

After almost every show, I had people - strangers from the audience - come up to me and say to me that I looked beautiful on stage, that they thought I did great. It was very touching... after all, I was only a little chorus girl. But I made some sort of impact on people, enough for total strangers to tell me so. That is an amazing feeling.

As soon as the curtain closed after the final bow and song, I started crying... just the realisation that it was all really over. I'm going to miss those people, surprisingly. I'm not going to audition for the next show that SALOS are doing, because of "Noises Off", but they've told me to come back and do another show, sometime. Maybe I'll go back for the Christmas show at the end of the year. That could be fun.

Funny how for so long I just wanted it to be done with, and now that it is, I'm really going to miss it.

I'm getting a copy of the video that one of the guys was making. So a little piece of Vienna will always be in my heart....

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

the 2nd cast party

Last night (after we performed the last show for "Waltzes in Vienna"), I went straight to rehearsal for my other show, "Noises Off", and then after that, we went to Charlotte's place for a party/piss up/social event. Call it what you will, but it was all the same. I had a lot of fun. I love, love, LOVE those people... being with them is always an amazing, fun, experience. I'm absolutely exhausted right about now, after having about 4 hours sleep, but I had a great time.

It's just occurring to me that now I have more free time. It's really a surreal concept, but I'm looking forward to it.

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

content

i'm tired, but happy. I'm just waiting for some stuff to finish downloading from Bearshare, and then I'll go inside and go to bed, at long last. Dad brought a CD burner over the weekend, to backup is work files, but you know I'm using it to make CDs. So I'm quite stoked about that. I've already made 1, with a whole bunch of my all time favourite songs on it. I'm excited to go in and listen to it.

I'm meeting an old school friend for coffee on Thursday afternoon, which will be nice. I haven't seen him in ages, so I'm looking forward to catching up with him again. Now that I have some more spare time, I'm going to make an effort to see more of my friends, and to work on the quality of my friendships. Things like spending time with my friends - like last night - is what makes me the happiest, and lately I haven't had too much time to do that. I'm going to start making up for it now.

26% of my file left to download. This one is taking forever - I wish it'd just be done with, so I can go inside and sleep!!!!!