September 12th, 2002

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

"i'm a survivor, i'm gonna make it..."

today has been a lovely day, really. i had lunch at uni with my friend Rebecca, and we talked the whole time of musicals and our favourite musical stars - it never ceases to amaze me how many people i've met up here who share similar interests to me, that i didn't have back in adelaide. it's like surrounding myself with the things i love the most, and finding people who feel that exact same way, and it's comforting. then i had a wonderful talk with Kelly, in my music class, and she invited me over on Saturday night, so we can study for the upcoming theatre exam on Monday. it sounds so corny, but i really am excited to be making friends up here. Pat would always tell me that I'd find it easy to make friends at uni, but sometimes i can be shyer than it appears.

yesterday afternoon, i brought some Tori Amos cds - i think i own them all now, and it makes me wonder why it took so long to really get into her music. previously i could only listen to her music when i was in a certain mood, and always only late at night, but the last few days her music has been playing continuously through my cd player- it makes me think of cooling[!], but there has been something calming about it, that i never really noticed before. i think i've needed that.

it's been a rough few days, but i'm not going to give up. i'm filling my life with positive things, and as of today, there are only 13 days until i'm back in adelaide for a holiday to see all my favourite people. there are beautiful people at uni who make me smile, ballet classes to challenge my body, and interesting subjects to challenge my mind. i have so much love in my life, and even though sometimes i can't always see it, i know it's there.