September 29th, 2002

butterfly girl : where she goes when she

she's been everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own

Today was my first real relaxing day of my holiday so far, although it wasn't quite meant to be that way. Still, it was very much needed. I finished watching "Lord of the Rings", including the featurette disc, came online for awhile, and then tonight, went to the movies with Kristy to see Austin Powers "Goldmember", which I thought was pretty funny.

Tomorrow afternoon is going away with Russell until Wednesday, and how I've looked forward to this. There's more to say on this topic... but not now. Kristy just laughed when I told her I was going away: "but you're already on holiday!" but sometimes this doesn't feel like being on holidays. Its like Queensland and all my adventures there seem so far away, because now that I'm back here for these days, it seems as though I've never left. Things are mostly the same, and in many ways its comforting, but in other ways... I can see why I needed to get out.

I'll be sad to go back home [still, not for over a week yet], but Queensland is a comfort in itself. As I said to Kristy tonight, I know that Queensland is the right place for me right now. I couldn't have stayed here, and I still can't. But it doesn't mean I can't miss everyone close to me.

I'm still trying to find my stability, but never quite knowing where to look.