there's a certain craziness to my life at the moment, but crazy in a good way, a way that makes me smile and remember how lucky i am to have this opportunity. not everyone can pack up and follow their dreams, because there are obstacles, always obstacles that stand in the way; but i'm one of the lucky ones. in the 2 1/2 weeks that i've been here in Queensland, i've been presented with so many amazing opportunities and chances to make dreams come true, as though fate is truly playing a hand in this game called life.
this week was the week to start dancing again. ballet 3 times a week (including pointe, Re - be jealous! haha), jazz, tap (senior bronze or silver), musical theatre classes - it's hard, hard work that at times makes me question what exactly i'm doing, but then i remember - its because i love it so much. and you know that when you can smile even doing the most mundane of exercises standing at the barre, or walk around the house doing your port de bras unknowingly, you're doing it all for a very good reason.
another exciting thing i'm involved in is working on a production for a children's theatre company, a musical called "Bugsy Malone". yesterday was the first rehearsal i attended, and already i got to be involved with some assistant directing, choreographing, and vocals work. it's so amazing to watch these young, 10year old children come together to put on a show, maybe because i was just like them when i was that age, or maybe because i feel so lucky to be working on a production this early on in my new life.
Jane and Patrick (housemates) enquire as to how i'm actually going to manage all this, on top of working and oh yeah, uni, but all i can say is that somehow, i'm going to do it. i'm working towards something here, and one day, these dreams are going to completely come true. i know it, because they've already started.
was it only 2 weeks ago that i was crying into the phone to Russell and wondering what the hell i was doing by being here?
was it only 3 weeks ago thay i was back in Adelaide, fearful yet excited for this new start, saying goodbye to everyone i loved?
was it only 3 months ago that i was planning to work full-time at Rebel because i had no other idea of what i wanted to do?
life can certainly be strange [isn't it funny how things can change?]
i miss everyone back home so much. but i'm here for a reason, and i'm going to live it. and by god, i'm going to let anything bring me down.