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16 August 2002 @ 08:36 pm
i feel very much without hope right now.

[i guess what goes up, must come down. after being on a high for the last month, i couldn't possibly expect not to come crashing down to earth at a rapid speed. certain events of the last 48 hours have led me to question everything, what i'm doing here, how i'm going to survive if Centrelink don't grant me youth allowance as i was expecting, why work has screwed me over, and whats going to happen if everything falls apart. i can't go back to the way things were, and at the same time, it's almost starting to seem that certain things are an impossibility here after all. i'm trying to hold onto my dreams, yet maybe i've just been deluding myself all along. perhaps there's really no place for me here either. and this reality is blocking out every bit of hope i thought i once had]
tongue-tied twistedbloomingseed on August 16th, 2002 05:28 am (UTC)
i'm sorry you're feeling this way.
i know it all too well.
you've gone through alot to get where you are, and i know how hard it is to pick up and move far away from everything (i did it too).
but you're strong, and brave (you're proven that already) and i know you can do this if you want. best of luck.
snow-whiteiikkar on August 16th, 2002 05:56 am (UTC)
I hope things will be alright!

Aubreystormvibrations on August 16th, 2002 07:12 am (UTC)
You will make it, and you will follow your dreams. You've worked so hard for this, and you deserve it. You'll get past this snag, I know it! :)
unia on August 16th, 2002 07:25 am (UTC)
violet stars falling from a winter sky: fionasilentsea on August 16th, 2002 08:08 am (UTC)
i know how badit feels when everything seems to be falling apart. Even if it's only in your head. I'm here for you sweetie...i love you and i know you are strong enough to make it :)

i'm with you! :)
i am.bornalion on August 16th, 2002 11:14 am (UTC)
hey you! you with the pointe shoes!


now smile. because i prefer the smiling-and-in-love jade more than the sad-i-suck jade. okay?

maybe i prefer her because i KNOW you're going to do well.

paints daisies and plays with glittershepaintsthesky on August 16th, 2002 01:39 pm (UTC)
amen to that last reply...
you'll be fine. you're strong.
have faith and confidence...you'll be fine. :)

Sounds like you need a vacation, though, more than anything.

If you're ever in the US, let me know, I'll show you around beautiful Buffalo, New York and we can take a trip to Niagara Falls (I only live about 30 minutes from the falls)!

take a break, breathe a little.
viva__vandalism on August 17th, 2002 01:16 am (UTC)
I hope things work out for you Jadey
Simonemonielove on August 17th, 2002 02:24 pm (UTC)
Even when things seem "perfect", there will coem a time when you have to take a few steps back wards..and i know it feels like the world is crashing down, but i know you are a strong person and you're gonna find a way to still have your dreams. You made it this far already...