okay, that's enough of sadness! lets think of the positives

+ getting to meet cooling on Thursday!!
+ crazy conversations and laughing with my housemate Pat
+ the auditions that my penpal Farah told me about for The Lion King musical
+ prospect of seeing Farah this week for a movie
+ talking to Russell last night and realising that someone loves me, regardless of what happens
+ realising that i'm here, to live out my dreams, and by god, i'm not going to let some stupid government stop me. i'm not going to give up so easily now that i'm here

i'm trying. really, i am.