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04 April 2003 @ 06:13 pm
everything changes  
sometimes everything just seems all over the place. this morning i woke up with no job; then i was offered 2. i declined the one at the nutrition clinic, the one that i once said would be my "ideal job", but it's funny how a little information can make all that turn around 180degrees. she wasn't too happy, and called me back to say that if i changed my mind, she was leaving the job open for a few more days. just in case. and it makes me feel even worse for saying no, but what can you do? still, it's the story of my life. believe it or not, this is the 3rd time in my life i've been offered more than 1 job at a time. one time was actually 3 jobs i got offered. it's always been decisions, yet making the wrong one can only turn out bad. but how do you know? as selma, russ's mum said this morning: "oh, i didn't realise there was a fork in the road". and i've turned my back on everything i said previous to today about working and what i wanted... but i'm happy with my decision. sometimes you have to do the things you said you wouldn't do. sometimes you have to seek opportunity in other places, and not just the most obvious ones.

i start on the 14th of april. i have a week off as they're short-staffed next week, and the supervisor wants to make sure i get all the attention i'll need during my first week. so it's nice to know i have some extra time off before starting, just to get myself together. the idea of really having a full-time job is completely overwhelming. maybe unbelievable is the better word to use. its something i wanted, but didn't believe would get. not now, not yet. and i'm lucky, so lucky, because i only went for interviews with 2 jobs since i got back from queensland, and wound up getting both of them. not everyone can have that luxury of choice.

i might not want a future in insurance and investments, but in a company like this, i'm on my way to having a career :) that's what i've always wanted, and russ says, "i want a career now too!" not just working, but working towards something. i always needed to have a drive. i always needed to push myself. now i can start over.


god, i'm so, so glad i came back home. what with my ex-housemates acting like psycho money-hunters the other night (long story, unhappy ending... but who really cares anyway?), and all my wonderful friends i have here in adelaide... i can't believe there was ever really a decision to be made. it was just a matter of time in the end.
hearts streaked across the skies: until tomorrowlikeyesterday on April 4th, 2003 02:09 am (UTC)
<3333! I'm so happy that you got that job. It sounds fabulous, really. :) Congrats, darle.
winterswitchery on April 4th, 2003 05:22 am (UTC)
I'm so happy for you :)
carmelitatoomanystars on April 4th, 2003 05:46 am (UTC)
"it's always been decisions, yet making the wrong one can only turn out bad"
I disagree. I think you can make the best out of whatever decision you make. And I think that you're definitely the kind of person who WOULD make the best out of things.

But anyway: congratulations! :D
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 4th, 2003 07:02 pm (UTC)
you're very right :) i shouldn't have sounded so negative - things are only bad if you let them BE bad. as you said, it's about making the best of a bad situation if that's what it comes to.
but nothing is entirely bad on its own, no matter what decision you make :)
ex_scapula on April 4th, 2003 07:49 am (UTC)

now if only i could find a full time job.
L.discountsatori on April 4th, 2003 07:53 am (UTC)
Wow! Having two job offers at once is awesome. Most of us are not that talented. ;)

Congrats on your new job!
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 4th, 2003 07:08 pm (UTC)
Simonemonielove on April 4th, 2003 11:37 am (UTC)
conrats on your job! It's important to have a job thats working towards something and where you can shine and be appreciated :) I'm sure you'll be a success!
i hope your ex-housemates are giving you some peace..we've already talked about this but whatever the problem is, they should have covered their asses financially and shouldn't be taking it out on you! take care xox
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 4th, 2003 07:10 pm (UTC)
yeah, exactly. i was actually writing your letter when i called them about getting my bond back, but i was so upset afterwards, i couldn't continue. i'll tell you more about it in the letter though. oh well, whatever... i don't have to see them again, so what does it matter?
&thanks for the congrats!
delicatewings on April 4th, 2003 03:02 pm (UTC)
i knew you were able to get the job. :)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 4th, 2003 07:11 pm (UTC)
thankyou for your faith darling... it helps, so much.
xxxx <3