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28 September 2003 @ 05:06 pm
the leaves have fallen  
i honestly feel just so happy today, for no real reason. other than just feeling like everything is going to be okay, that i'm going to be okay. i feel like i'm starting to let go of a lot of the crap that was bringing me down - things that don't matter, things that aren't worth it.
i just feel so light and carefree. and happy.

i haven't been able to say that in a very, very long time.


i'm listening to "shadowland", from the lion king: the broadway musical on repeat, and oh oh, i just adore it so much. i think it is one of the reasons for why i feel so at peace right now. oh love, i can't describe how this music stirs me. j'adore.

am waiting for downloads to finish, and making cds so i can send out mail. <3 weekends. but i also love work, and don't dread the thought of monday morning tomorrow. i'm pretty lucky, you know? although i am on switchboard later on this week, and that kind of makes me a bit stressed sometimes, but nothing i can't control. i'm pretty much caught up on all my work anyway, so it should be fine.

&oh! my mother & nan suggest that it might be better to go to england in spring, rather than autumn like i was planning to. i said that i didn't know if i could wait till 2005 to go, and mum said she was thinking of spring next year, not the year after. that's only 6 or 7 months away! of course, it depends on how well i save -- but with something like this looming, oh oh oh. i really could be going to visit england in the next year, and that makes me so excited. my first real overseas trip. even if it didn't happen for more than a year or so, it's still exciting to plan & dream - but even more exciting when it could become a reality. oh, my excitement runs through my veins like blood right now. i looked through books on england while i was in bookstores this weekend, and i wanted to press myself into the pages and magically appear on the underground or in convent garden <3. but one day!

ahhh. i hope this feeling lasts & lasts. it just feels like anything is possible if i try; that there's so much in the world that i can take in & breathe in & be a part of. perhaps yr mind is the only boundary after all. i just feel so inspired and eager and anticipating the things to come.

i feel like this song transforms me. oh, breathe your magic into me...

shadowland, be my guide <3
haneli on September 28th, 2003 01:21 am (UTC)
*hugs!* :)

It's important to really enjoy the happy times I think, because we tend to ignore them and think of them as less real and focus only on the bad times.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on September 28th, 2003 03:55 pm (UTC)
agreed. but the happier times are much nicer to focus on :)
haneli on September 28th, 2003 09:34 pm (UTC)
Yes they are. :)
miss o: dude - credit to eri_layoutkindylove on September 28th, 2003 01:48 am (UTC)
i am so happy to hear that honey! :)

Anything but typicalgypsiewriter on September 28th, 2003 08:05 am (UTC)
Really glad that you're happy!! I'm happy, too...:)

Points for us! Long may it last!

    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on September 28th, 2003 03:53 pm (UTC)
i agree! :)
Anything but typicalgypsiewriter on September 29th, 2003 02:20 pm (UTC)
I love your *we are all stars* interest :)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on September 30th, 2003 01:46 am (UTC)
thanks :)
underwater thing_happy_phantom on September 28th, 2003 09:12 am (UTC)
good to see you happy, beautiful girl. i wanna go to england too.
Nicole: friendshipflyingsolo on September 28th, 2003 09:29 am (UTC)
It's so wonderful to see you feeling happy, Jade. ::Hugs::

mylunchbox on September 29th, 2003 02:41 am (UTC)
oh darlin - you'll definately make it to england!! and you'll have a blast doing it! id always wanted to travel...
i onlky planned it properly a few months before i left...and i was gone for a yr!! LoL (and i packed the nite before *urrghhh* do not make the same mistake as it is hell!!!!)
glad ur feeling better sweetie :P
love u