++ i think r misses me, and he wants to see me again <3 i should always remember that our so called permanent "breaks" never are actually permanent. but i haven't seen him for 8 days, and i'm doing fine anyway. it's nice to not be so dependent on someone, and i don't want to lose that again. it's also nice to know that someone really does still want you, despite everything. things at the moment feel just like they did when i was in qld and we had just started seeing each other, and he was missing me across the distance.
++ i have met the most beautiful faerie-girl, her name is alex and she is my english faerie-sister. i swear that if there are really soulmates, she would just about be it. she only emailed me for the first time less than 2 weeks ago, but i feel like i have known her for a lifetime (maybe we knew each other in a previous life?) i really don't connect straight away with people like this because i am usually on the hesitant side, but already this beautiful faerie has made such a positive impact on my life and brings a smile and a sparkle to my face every single day. already i know there would be a hole in my life if she was to go away, and i would definitely miss her friendship. i feel so immensely lucky to know this darling english rose. <3<3<3
++ have been looking into doing photography courses next year, as evening classes, and have had some wonderful information sent out to me, with some fantastic courses beginning in february 04. &oh, i am so excited to get into something new & creative & full of possibility again. learning something new will be just the anictdote i need to find passion again.
++ shopping trip today!! :D hello, shallowness. we are living in a material world and i am a material girl. eep. but oh i love it anyway. i am going in another 40 minutes, just as the shops have opened, and will hopefully do most of my christmas shopping (well actually i started about 3 weeks ago lol), and just enjoy some time wandering around and taking everything in. it's so silly but i have been looking forward to this all week. also i just got paid (well i think that's why i'm so excited)
++ i have made a lovely new friend in wendy at work, and we always have so much to talk about. between her, and natalie, and catherine and lois, going to work truly is an absolute pleasure - even when i am annoyed at certain things ;)
okay, was meant to be off the computer half an hour ago to get ready, so sending you all my love and thinking of you. please tell me if there is anything at all i can do to help any of you? i do worry; there are far too many going through rough times.