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01 November 2003 @ 08:37 am
&beautiful things:  
++ have been feeling mostly positive and fine for the last 5 days :) the only times i've been in a negative mood have been when i was annoyed at things at work, and i was annoyed at work and not at myself :) and those times only lasted an hour or so, and then i was able to laugh it off. look, maybe my moods are becoming normal! lol.

++ i think r misses me, and he wants to see me again <3 i should always remember that our so called permanent "breaks" never are actually permanent. but i haven't seen him for 8 days, and i'm doing fine anyway. it's nice to not be so dependent on someone, and i don't want to lose that again. it's also nice to know that someone really does still want you, despite everything. things at the moment feel just like they did when i was in qld and we had just started seeing each other, and he was missing me across the distance.

++ i have met the most beautiful faerie-girl, her name is alex and she is my english faerie-sister. i swear that if there are really soulmates, she would just about be it. she only emailed me for the first time less than 2 weeks ago, but i feel like i have known her for a lifetime (maybe we knew each other in a previous life?) i really don't connect straight away with people like this because i am usually on the hesitant side, but already this beautiful faerie has made such a positive impact on my life and brings a smile and a sparkle to my face every single day. already i know there would be a hole in my life if she was to go away, and i would definitely miss her friendship. i feel so immensely lucky to know this darling english rose. <3<3<3

++ have been looking into doing photography courses next year, as evening classes, and have had some wonderful information sent out to me, with some fantastic courses beginning in february 04. &oh, i am so excited to get into something new & creative & full of possibility again. learning something new will be just the anictdote i need to find passion again.

++ shopping trip today!! :D hello, shallowness. we are living in a material world and i am a material girl. eep. but oh i love it anyway. i am going in another 40 minutes, just as the shops have opened, and will hopefully do most of my christmas shopping (well actually i started about 3 weeks ago lol), and just enjoy some time wandering around and taking everything in. it's so silly but i have been looking forward to this all week. also i just got paid (well i think that's why i'm so excited)

++ i have made a lovely new friend in wendy at work, and we always have so much to talk about. between her, and natalie, and catherine and lois, going to work truly is an absolute pleasure - even when i am annoyed at certain things ;)

okay, was meant to be off the computer half an hour ago to get ready, so sending you all my love and thinking of you. please tell me if there is anything at all i can do to help any of you? i do worry; there are far too many going through rough times.
Fleenfleen on October 31st, 2003 06:06 pm (UTC)
yaaay! maybe this is just a good day in the cycle of good and bad days but you sound really positive! New friends, new ambitions, photography course sounds fun and independent, retail therapy (I know what that's all about!). Hey and re: the not being dependent thing - if you're feeling good about it great. The hardest thing though is to not care whether he still wants to be with you or not. And not to make an effort to make sure he still wants you. It might be years before you're able to do that (not care). I know I'm not quite there yet!

Fleen xoxox
scissor shaped girl: pinky peach. sparkles like jellyfishtumblelolly on November 1st, 2003 02:00 am (UTC)

i know an angel of a girl named alex, i wonder if it is the same one (or maybe all alex's are gorgeous sparklies)
scissor shaped girl: pinky peach. sparkles like jellyfishtumblelolly on November 1st, 2003 02:02 am (UTC)

lol i forgot to add, i'm very glad you're feeling better.
thorn witchalex_faerie on November 2nd, 2003 08:11 am (UTC)
Faerie-J that was such a beautiful thing to say! I feel exactly the same about you, thank you for brightening MY life. Can't wait to get writing to you and I think the strike situation is improving- woo hoo! Love you lots, Alex xxxx
carmelitatoomanystars on November 2nd, 2003 09:56 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you're feeling happier, Jade! :)
postmarkmyheart on November 3rd, 2003 02:05 am (UTC)
that is the cutest thing ever. you and your faerie sister. :)
i have an eskimoe sister and i know exactly how you feel. about maybe knowing a person in our previous lives. it's quite amazing really.

and all i need from you is your happiness jade. knowing that will help me enough. ♥
.habit on November 4th, 2003 08:05 am (UTC)
Your words give me encouragement :-) I'm happy that you are happy.