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23 February 2001 @ 06:55 pm
falling again?  
the last few days, i've suddenly run out of energy and enthusiasm for... life? i don't know how to describe it, but suddenly, i want to do nothing more than just hide under my blankets, and go to sleep and wake up refreshed and energised.

i recognise this feeling. it's the same feeling i've gotten towards the end of each semester for the last couple of years - being too tired to do anything, feeling antisocial, not having the energy to do the things i love. i almost feel like i don't WANT to do all this stuff i'm doing at the moment - rehearsals, the play, working, being with my friends. i feel like i just want to be alone, and just take time out for a few weeks. i don't know what's going on.

uni hasn't even started yet, and already i'm feeling lethargic. i'm scared that once i start back at uni, i'll fall apart again. at least every other semester, i've waited a few weeks before starting to crack.

i start uni again on Monday. i have 2 days to get over this feeling, because damnit... i won't let myself fall apart again like i did last year. it's too scary.