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16 November 2004 @ 12:30 pm
oh gods.
where do i find the courage?

i so badly want to go back overseas for awhile
stay and work a casual job, travel the countries
meet new people, have adventures. just for awhile,
you know?

but i am sosososcared to do it.
i am scared of being alone (that is my biggest fear of all).

where do i find the strength & determination to do something that frightens me immensely, but that i'll regret if i don't do it?
this is not me..xbrokenx on November 16th, 2004 02:08 am (UTC)
are you single now?
sylvia plath's revenge: salty oceans &jaredletovaniityx on November 16th, 2004 02:09 am (UTC)
i believe you are strong enough. ♥
amesfabuleuxamelie on November 16th, 2004 02:15 am (UTC)
Jade, you've just come back from travelling around the UK on your own (with friends in some parts, I know, but generally speaking you did the trip alone). A whole new country, six whole weeks, staying with some people you've never actually met before. You've done that, darling, you can do anything. Your trip took some real courage, trust me.

If you want to go on a working holiday, then do it - there's nothing stopping you.
popcorndamselgraffiti on November 16th, 2004 02:31 am (UTC)
the bigger the risk, the bigger the reward really does hold a lot of truth in it, i think. let it become your mantra, maybe then you'll eventually feel the courage to go for it.
say hello to pepe.: in fair verona where we lay our scenegutterkitten on November 16th, 2004 02:37 am (UTC)
i have a quote, a cherokee proverb actually, that i try to live by...it applies here as well, "face your fears, live your dreams." otherwise you never know what you will miss out on, but you may end up regretting not going forever.
but every night, I burn..: freedomlove_warrior on November 16th, 2004 04:14 am (UTC)
Personally, I feel that if something really, truly terrifies me, (in a healthy sort of way) then it is most likely something that, if nothing else, will make me a stronger person, if not improve my life in many other areas. If it scares the shit out of you, Jade, then I'm willing to bet it;s something that you need to do.
jen reneedaisywhite on November 16th, 2004 05:12 am (UTC)
I'm sure that you will not only have the best time, but the most beautiful memories if you do go.
lyricsofmylife on November 16th, 2004 05:57 am (UTC)
I'm scared of being alone too. What if we moved temporarily to England together and we could just enjoy the change of scenery and each others' company together? ;)
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 16th, 2004 09:34 am (UTC)
oh goodness, how awesome would that be !!!
onemoreyear on November 16th, 2004 06:15 am (UTC)
i don't know where to find it, but i have faith that you will. but i completely understand the fear of being alone; that's what keeps me from just packing up and leaving at will.

you can do it. i know you can and you will. & it'll be amazing. ♥
ko_uta on November 16th, 2004 02:06 pm (UTC)
You find it where we all find it, in each other. *hugs*
mercurycirce on November 16th, 2004 03:56 pm (UTC)
You could always visit me if you felt lonely? Or you could call? I'm a good friend once you get to know me. But I leave it entirely up to you. I'm in Birmingham so I could get to where you are if you live in a major city or close enough.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 16th, 2004 10:36 pm (UTC)
oh goodness; i would love that so much.
i am thinking of moving to Cambridge... how far is that from Birmingham? i didn't go there when i was over, so i'm not quite sure where it is :X
mercurycirce on November 17th, 2004 12:33 am (UTC)
*grins* Um, Cambridge is sort of between Birmingham and London. Basically, it's no problem for either of us to get to and from :D
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on November 17th, 2004 08:14 am (UTC)
ooh ♥
that is definitely worth remembering :)
eleanor janephotogirl on November 17th, 2004 05:04 pm (UTC)

i think you just have to put your fear aside & dive in head first.
if you need any help looking for work, accomodation, anything over here, i'll help you :)