♥ plans to see both the girls on new years eve, and it's the first nye in a few years i've looked forward to, as well as looking to the new year with excitement. there's more to write about this, but perhaps later because a lack of sleep this weekend means being unable to write a deep entry in a coherent manner (hence the heart-points); but for once i'm not filled with dread about the end of the year.
♥ one more day of the long weekened (woe); wishing i didn't need to sleep because there's a hundred things i'd rather do instead. there are books to read, zines to write (partway through the new one i decided to make this week, an interlude to winterspark), mail art to create. letters to catch up on (always), working holidays to research, writing assignments to be done, deviantart sites to be updated, webpages to begin designing. i'm trying to learn how to save the world or at least be a better person, find out how to make a difference in something that matters, and i wish i could throw myself whole-heartedly into something i believe in and know that it meant something to the people it needs to. i still owe _ikhoudvanu a mix cd and i need to send out zines to distros for catalogue consideration. tomorrow i need to wash my car and list things on ebay to sell and write & write & write, and i might be catching up with haylea for dinner; so many things and who wants to waste time with their eyes shut ?
i am filling my life with things i love because it's the only way i know how to get through. whats the point otherwise ?