scarlet's walk (kisstheviolets) wrote,
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eep, stress

wow, this whole ticket-buying thing is stressful. well not buying the tickets, but all the organising that goes along with it. planning & nervous anxiety & worrying about sellouts. it's fun, but gods, i'll be glad when i KNOW i have tickets.
&to anyone who saw my last post, please disregard -- it's all been sorted out. tomorrow i shall be in search of 3 good seats at the sydney opera house concert hall for may 7 !! and also for adelaide tickets. i'm getting to work at 8am to (hopefully) book the adelaide tickets (if they go on sale a bit earlier than the 9am time they have advertised... well, you never know).

tomorrow is not a good day to begin training. it's hard to switch my attention back. but i will, i must.
i'll just focus a lot better once this part is over. i've been so scattered and distracted at work this week, and i feel guilty. especially when my team leader is being so nice about it all.
i need to calm down. breathe, focus, relax. this is not the end of the world.

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in something completely unrelated, does anyone know the protocol for writing to um, prisoners? i don't mean your serial-killer, rapist-murderer type prisoners. i'm talking about schapelle corby, the girl i mentioned briefly in this post - an australian girl who is currently being held in custody in bali, accused of smuggling 4kg worth of marijuana in her body board bag. she has vehemently denied knowing the drugs were in her bag - they were discovered in customs when she arrived in bali airport last october, i believe. anyway, she is currently on trial for drug smuggling, and could face execution if found guilty. last week, another australian, who was being held in a victorian jail for unrelated incidents, was flown over to testify on schapelle's behalf that it wasn't her - that he had overheard a conversation in the jail about who actually planted the drugs in her bag. the verdict is not expected to be out until may, at least.

i keep thinking about her. i don't know her at all, only what i've seen on the news, read in the papers. she's not the only person to be held in custody for a crime she likely did not commit in a country far away from everyone she loves. but somehow this case has gotten to me. it bothers me, and i ache for her. i can't imagine how she has lasted the last 6 months in that tiny jail cell somewhere in bali, knowing that she may be there the rest of her life - that is, if she's not placed in front of a firing squad to execute her.

i honestly don't believe she did it. i do believe in her innocence, and i am dreadfully frightened that they will convict her anyway. is she being given a fair trial? probably not. i am scared for her, and because i am selfish, self-absorbed brat, i am scared for myself too. because i am an idealist at heart and i keep believing that in the end, things will work out right. everything will turn out right.

but it doesn't. and an innocent girl may be executed, simply for being naive. and that crushes me, although obviously not as much as it would crush her.

how can one believe in the goodness of the world?

i want to send her a letter and tell her not to give up. i know that sounds so silly, and i am silly. a letter probably wouldn't even get to her - it would probably be withheld. i don't want to get into any trouble or anything, which is why i'm posting this here - to see if anyone knows anything about writing to people in custody and what sort of repercussions it could have. all i want to do is tell her to keep on being brave, that she is doing so well so far, she can make it, people believe in her innocence.

but i'm so scared that the jury won't. and that's all that matters right now.

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