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06 April 2005 @ 09:09 pm
eep, stress  
wow, this whole ticket-buying thing is stressful. well not buying the tickets, but all the organising that goes along with it. planning & nervous anxiety & worrying about sellouts. it's fun, but gods, i'll be glad when i KNOW i have tickets.
&to anyone who saw my last post, please disregard -- it's all been sorted out. tomorrow i shall be in search of 3 good seats at the sydney opera house concert hall for may 7 !! and also for adelaide tickets. i'm getting to work at 8am to (hopefully) book the adelaide tickets (if they go on sale a bit earlier than the 9am time they have advertised... well, you never know).

tomorrow is not a good day to begin training. it's hard to switch my attention back. but i will, i must.
i'll just focus a lot better once this part is over. i've been so scattered and distracted at work this week, and i feel guilty. especially when my team leader is being so nice about it all.
i need to calm down. breathe, focus, relax. this is not the end of the world.


in something completely unrelated, does anyone know the protocol for writing to um, prisoners? i don't mean your serial-killer, rapist-murderer type prisoners. i'm talking about schapelle corby, the girl i mentioned briefly in this post - an australian girl who is currently being held in custody in bali, accused of smuggling 4kg worth of marijuana in her body board bag. she has vehemently denied knowing the drugs were in her bag - they were discovered in customs when she arrived in bali airport last october, i believe. anyway, she is currently on trial for drug smuggling, and could face execution if found guilty. last week, another australian, who was being held in a victorian jail for unrelated incidents, was flown over to testify on schapelle's behalf that it wasn't her - that he had overheard a conversation in the jail about who actually planted the drugs in her bag. the verdict is not expected to be out until may, at least.

i keep thinking about her. i don't know her at all, only what i've seen on the news, read in the papers. she's not the only person to be held in custody for a crime she likely did not commit in a country far away from everyone she loves. but somehow this case has gotten to me. it bothers me, and i ache for her. i can't imagine how she has lasted the last 6 months in that tiny jail cell somewhere in bali, knowing that she may be there the rest of her life - that is, if she's not placed in front of a firing squad to execute her.

i honestly don't believe she did it. i do believe in her innocence, and i am dreadfully frightened that they will convict her anyway. is she being given a fair trial? probably not. i am scared for her, and because i am selfish, self-absorbed brat, i am scared for myself too. because i am an idealist at heart and i keep believing that in the end, things will work out right. everything will turn out right.

but it doesn't. and an innocent girl may be executed, simply for being naive. and that crushes me, although obviously not as much as it would crush her.

how can one believe in the goodness of the world?

i want to send her a letter and tell her not to give up. i know that sounds so silly, and i am silly. a letter probably wouldn't even get to her - it would probably be withheld. i don't want to get into any trouble or anything, which is why i'm posting this here - to see if anyone knows anything about writing to people in custody and what sort of repercussions it could have. all i want to do is tell her to keep on being brave, that she is doing so well so far, she can make it, people believe in her innocence.

but i'm so scared that the jury won't. and that's all that matters right now.

agreeably on April 6th, 2005 12:00 pm (UTC)
execution for drug smuggling? jeez. that's a bit harsh.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 10:56 pm (UTC)
it's in Bali... the penalty for drug-related crimes is WAY harsh in countries like Bali & Thailand & Indonesia :(
jupiterava__ on April 6th, 2005 01:23 pm (UTC)
i think that she would adore a letter.
ive been thinking about her a lot, and i dont think that she is guilty either.
but i really dont think that her innocence matters that much, they cant fucking shoot her for carrying MARIJUANA.
but god i think that she appears to be somewhat more intelligent that to stuff that much into a bag where it is clearly going to be seen. and just her face, i cant imagine what she is feeling. and nothing fucking adds up at all. it is SO FRUSTRATING, that they are allowed to keep her like this.

but you are so sweet darling, and i really really think that you should write to her. i think that it would mean more to her than any of us can possibaly imagine. <3
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 10:58 pm (UTC)
exactly. i'm sorry, but what FUCKWIT would try to smuggle 4.1kg of drugs in, thinking they WOULDN'T get caught. it's not like a packet or something you could easily conceal. i really don't think she would be so STUPID as to even try... i just can't believe she is guilty.
it makes me want to cry :(
Denisedecemberjuliet on April 6th, 2005 02:21 pm (UTC)
DId you ever see the movie "Brokedown Palace" with Claire Danes? It's very close to Schapelle Corby's situation
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 11:02 pm (UTC)
i saw some of it - and i agree. i always think of that movie actually, when i hear about Corby.
the movie made me sad, i couldn't watch all of it. i'm weak like that.
eleanor janephotogirl on April 6th, 2005 03:21 pm (UTC)

Try emailing someone at Amnesty International & see if they have any information or advice on writing to her. I'm sure they have loads of experience with similar cases.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 11:02 pm (UTC)
that is an excellent idea -- thankyou for that. it is exactly what i'll do.
jessicasea__secret on April 6th, 2005 04:15 pm (UTC)
i don't know about writing to international prisoners--but i do correspond with a prisoner in the U.S.... he is someone who helped T tremendously earlier in his life and he is being held unjustly for something he didn't really do... long story though... but anyway, i do know that in the U.S., they can receive letters but he can only get packages if they are from Amazon.com. sometimes if you don't put the letter in a plain envelope, for some reason they won't deliver it to the prisoner (just plain white envelopes, no pretty mail art.) i know that this person i write to absolutely thrives on the letters he gets--he really has nothing else to keep him going, except books.

i think writing to her is a wonderful idea. let me know if you find the address & i'll write to her, as well.
Crystalcrystalina on April 6th, 2005 05:42 pm (UTC)
holy crap. she can be executed for potentially smuggling marijuana!!!!!!!!!!!??????????!!!!!! that is absurd. i don't even think that would get you executed in texas!
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 10:59 pm (UTC)
yup. she will be put in front of a firing squad.
the penalty for drug smuggling in the asia-pacific countries like indonesia, thailand, bali etc are horrid.
her garden of lilies & secrets.starlightrayne on April 6th, 2005 06:10 pm (UTC)
wow, that really does remind me of brokedown palace. how sad. i hope she is found innocent, i believe she's innocent too.
indriya on April 6th, 2005 10:16 pm (UTC)
y'know, when I was in Cambodia, one of my bags had been opened in between when I checked them in and when I picked them up. It was a little frightening, even though nothing was missing/added, and it was a relief it wasn't in Malaysia. (In fact, it turns out marajuana is used in traditional foods in Cambodia, which is odd considering their neighbours... needless to say we didn't try that cuisine because we didn't want anything in our systems going back thru Malaysia).

BUT when you go to places with death-penalties for drugs, you know where you're going. you know you should put extra locks on your bag. you know the risks. ignorance of the law is never a defense... and if indeed she is so naive, how do we know for sure she wasn't naive enough to pack a little bit of drugs for herself? ... while i doubt that's what happened, and i do think it was probably a screw up with a local deal between Brisbane and Sydney, we still don't know precisely what happened... Indonesia has its laws, extreme though they may seem. They think some of our laws are extreme... the rampant rabid suing and associated rubbish that goes on is an example...

I hope she is innocent and that Indonesia shows her compassion, and I believe they will - they're not out to ruin their reputation. I think this is more of a bit of an opportunity for them to point out how poor our drug detection/controls are, and that's probably why it's being dragged out... and if that's the case, Schapelle will be treated well and released when Indonesia has made its point clear. Australia stuffed up, they caught us. I'd find satisfaction in dragging that out, too.
    scarlet's walkkisstheviolets on April 6th, 2005 11:01 pm (UTC)
i agree about the locks thing with your bags, security etc. i always wondered why she didn't have a bag that frigging big, locked up... when i went away, all my bags had extra padlocks etc on them. but being executed for naivity is harsh. it's a lesson for us all, unfortunately.